Growing Pains

Growing hurts - even when You turn thirty.
Well I think so, for at the moment I have only turned twenty nine and am feeling like having enough already.
Is it that I have read too many books in my life? That nothing ever is happening by the nown route... or is it not enough books?
Life is so much different.

It is probably just a waste of time...


A glass of a white wine
I've turned twenty nine...



Yuppie


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Winds of Change...

are apparently blowing in a completely different direction.
Oh well.. I guess it is, in some part, my fault. I'm having that cute manner of saying tomorrow I'll start - only I refer to August..
that might be a chance for a change, but than again - the money I got is not that big, and the work is still demanding. Well not the work itself - the bosses are. They do not know what theuy want though.
Ha!
and that is a sufficient reason to start something on my own.
But I have a feeling, that it is not what I was going to talk about.
Something IS changing. I renewed a long lost contact with a Friend. And it might work alright again - on the professional platform. Good. Maybe burning the bridges to one's past is not always the best of ways to go through life.

As for the private side...
I'm still having a crush... and the "crush" does not know... this is something I really need to work on.

Some Sort of Affection

I'm not in love
so don't forget it
it's just a silly stage
I'm going through

It is one of the most refreshing experiences... to fall in love.
It's one of the strongest addictives to be loved back
but it is one of the most motivating factors to have a crush on somebody.

Why is it so motivating? - 'coz' You fear that the other side do not share Your point of view ofn this possible relationship, so You need to pretend that You don't care either...
It makes Your imagination work harder to cover the embarassment.
And I think I do have a crush now.
It's the nice little black haired girl from the fast food, where I eat sometimes.
I do have to main problems now...
One - to pluck up some courage and come up with a starter line, and the two...
where do You go out for a coffee with a girl who sells coffee?

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In Tolerance -> Intolerance

I've been talking to a Friend just now. We were discussing the everlasting matter of the generations changes.
How good we were - and how spoilt they were.
I commented how surpised I'd been sometimes with my own intolerance.
My Friend answered: Shut up - you can tolerate difference, but You should not tolerate stupidity.
I think I'll make these words my personal thought for life.
One of the few.


It is so good to have some wise Friends around.
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Where Did the Time Go?

Should I add anything else? I mean I had a lot of it some time ago. I had some of it recently and now I'm only having "now".
I really think I hate being a grown up. Especially if I cannot use every of its positive sides.
But something is going to happen soon. Something is going to change.. to make me stop complaining for a while.
But I will start again :P



I just wanted to check if I'm still awake.
That wasn't a brilliant post. Oh well.. nobody's perfect.
Good night.


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