Being Weak and Knowing it...

.. makes You a tiny bit stronger.

sometimes however it is not enough. Living through life people do and remember various things.

But what if there is nothing to remember.. or You don't want to remember?

there was a time when I wanted to remember and when I understood that I needed to forget.

I did forget, but my Psyche got weakened.

Now I smile. I am able to smile through most of the time. But it cost me a lot, and I'm still working on it bloody hard. I'm aware of the condition of my emotional shape so I will not allow anybody to invade my space and force me to choose from options meaning nothing good for me..

this week is just too wicked. I am not going to take responsibility for somebody's ..ucked up decisions. 

I might be naive.. but I'm having a lot to do to protect myself...

I'm sorry...

good night. I hope that next post would be cheerful.

OA