Work

You don't live to work. Anyway I don't. But the sad truth is that I work to live. But even having this in mind I remember there are things far more important than the huge piles of dollars, Pounds, Euros and magazines full of absolutely useless cra.. ft one can buy with coins.
Coins help. But they do not solve troubles or worries.

I realise my attitude's changing. And I like it.. as long as I can stay consequent with it. And as long as it does not prevent me from my way to independence.

So why, when everyone's taken a day free, I came to the work and sit. Is it a moral statement of "Mr Righteous" - coz da work needs 2 B done?

Nay... I'm taking my days off soon.. when there's a New Year, New Beginning and a New Citizen in my domain - Mr. Sparrow.
I'm waiting for the better time...
soon.

Have a nice day.

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Mr Sparrow I presume...

One of the greatest forces in the Universe - A Surprise. Strucks out from nowhere and leaves in awe. The victim stay helpless for a time... and there's no way to stop it.
You never know where to expect the "assault" from.

It surprised me lately how easily I can fall for a cat. I did not expect to have one for a long time.
And I was promised one. Still it was ard to believe - I was rather s c e p t i c a l . And then I was shown a photograph of that little creature. It remains on my computer now and I cannot wait till little Mr Jack Sparrow visits me to stay.

I'm scared. It is a completeley new experience. But then... I'm so impatient to start the new relationship :)

Have a good night.

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Autumn

Autumn came...
and as far as I can see, it's not going to leave.
Frankly speaking... I don't like Autumns.
This season makes me feel more like Auld than like Oengus.

and ...


no. That's all.

Have a just sleep.

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A Sad Joke

I heard recently a joke. a sad one when it comes to think about it.

"a one seventh of a life goes on Monday"

Tomorrow's Monday. I'm not really willing to meet this one with my arms wide open.
I started working on my shape recently. With my age the result is that I go to bed earlier and earlier everyday, and wake up later. In this way I can get some decent sleep only during weekends.
When I sleep - all my dreams come true. And ending them on Monday's morning is not one of my wishes.

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haunted anyway

Usually I would probably say a funny situation. But there was nothing funny about that. A group of people met to talk and to get to know each other better. They talk, they laugh, they discuss the matters that are more or less important. There are some groups within the group. Otherwise there would not be a discussion but an arguement. Somehow one of them is left out. NObody talks to him. That's sad.
He stands up and walks away. Pretending that nothing happened he causes so much fuss he gets everyone's attention.

That's me...

everytime I'm in a party of people and they don't talk to me i feel left out. I want to be noticed and have my narcism fed. I want to scream for attention.

But that wasn't me...

I've noticed a change... i can control it. At least I think so.
When I walk out i do it silently - I'm not noticed anyway.

But the feeling still haunts me...


Good night.

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A Ghost

I've seen a ghost yesterday. I met it on my way home. It's been haunting me for a long long time a few years ago. It haunts me still from time to time. It deprives me of my selfesteem. But I fight and I'm winning.
Yesterday i left the ghost behind me. I thought of it but only for a little while.
One day I will not notice the ghost at all...
and it'll disappear.

Good night.


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Leaving on a ... train

tomorrow a journey starts
- a bussiness trip rather, but hte one I started and led to.
I wonder how will it end. There are people I know, and the situations I created. But yet.. there is something unknown, but long waited for... the feeling of uneasiness, expectation...
hope

Maybe I should go to bed, have some sleep. I'm leaving early...

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Taboo and Swearwords

I read a book on English grammar once. there was a chapter on Taboo words and swearwords.
I remember that it gave a new sense to the meaning of the song: "I swear..."
Anyway..
I used to tell my father off, when he swore. I told him there was no use swearing at home, because that had not been the way to impress me. And it hadn't work either.
I could not understand the reason for an adult and responsible person to behave like a spoilt child.
I'm (quite) adult now. I go to work. I am not my own boss.. yet.
I'm having a boss.. and her husband (?) - "the boss".
Boss is quite reasonable... "the boss" wastes my time and vital forces...
I want to swear...
I do understand You now Dad..

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Wind of Changes

I promised myself, never to get political in my official statements.
First they can be verified very easily. Second - I have my views, but they're for me. I'm not in this world for preaching.
However...
I'm expecting a new ID card any time now. And one of the reasons for impatience is a Poll that takes place in three weeks. Nothing important.. just curiosity.
Baby steps seem to work - but they need to be taken quite fast.
Something to think about.

For another day.
Sleep well
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The address is changed

I can't say I was expecting this to go smoothly. I thought the bureaucracy would ake some more obstacles.
But they didn's.
I'm now waiting for a new ID and driver's licence. I'm also checked in my new apartment.

well.. good night then...

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Life sucks

But I will probably think different in the morning.
I'm slowly preparing to my free week. and there's nearly no metaphore in it... except that I am going to spend it in lines of people.. fighting bureaucracy
...


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A Completely New Post

I have noticed that my last two posts were sent exactly on the two celebration daysI'm having in July. That could mean, that even though the job is changed for a (objectively) better one I'm still having not enough time.
Sadly.. hardly anyone noticed me getting older. Maybe it's better, maybe it is just a sign of times.. and maybe it should stay this way.
Something has to go...


and now itś started to rain... a-ha...

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Growing Pains

Growing hurts - even when You turn thirty.
Well I think so, for at the moment I have only turned twenty nine and am feeling like having enough already.
Is it that I have read too many books in my life? That nothing ever is happening by the nown route... or is it not enough books?
Life is so much different.

It is probably just a waste of time...


A glass of a white wine
I've turned twenty nine...



Yuppie


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Winds of Change...

are apparently blowing in a completely different direction.
Oh well.. I guess it is, in some part, my fault. I'm having that cute manner of saying tomorrow I'll start - only I refer to August..
that might be a chance for a change, but than again - the money I got is not that big, and the work is still demanding. Well not the work itself - the bosses are. They do not know what theuy want though.
Ha!
and that is a sufficient reason to start something on my own.
But I have a feeling, that it is not what I was going to talk about.
Something IS changing. I renewed a long lost contact with a Friend. And it might work alright again - on the professional platform. Good. Maybe burning the bridges to one's past is not always the best of ways to go through life.

As for the private side...
I'm still having a crush... and the "crush" does not know... this is something I really need to work on.

Some Sort of Affection

I'm not in love
so don't forget it
it's just a silly stage
I'm going through

It is one of the most refreshing experiences... to fall in love.
It's one of the strongest addictives to be loved back
but it is one of the most motivating factors to have a crush on somebody.

Why is it so motivating? - 'coz' You fear that the other side do not share Your point of view ofn this possible relationship, so You need to pretend that You don't care either...
It makes Your imagination work harder to cover the embarassment.
And I think I do have a crush now.
It's the nice little black haired girl from the fast food, where I eat sometimes.
I do have to main problems now...
One - to pluck up some courage and come up with a starter line, and the two...
where do You go out for a coffee with a girl who sells coffee?

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In Tolerance -> Intolerance

I've been talking to a Friend just now. We were discussing the everlasting matter of the generations changes.
How good we were - and how spoilt they were.
I commented how surpised I'd been sometimes with my own intolerance.
My Friend answered: Shut up - you can tolerate difference, but You should not tolerate stupidity.
I think I'll make these words my personal thought for life.
One of the few.


It is so good to have some wise Friends around.
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Where Did the Time Go?

Should I add anything else? I mean I had a lot of it some time ago. I had some of it recently and now I'm only having "now".
I really think I hate being a grown up. Especially if I cannot use every of its positive sides.
But something is going to happen soon. Something is going to change.. to make me stop complaining for a while.
But I will start again :P



I just wanted to check if I'm still awake.
That wasn't a brilliant post. Oh well.. nobody's perfect.
Good night.


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Does Being a Boss equal Being Dumb?

nothing more - nothing less...


why don't they talk...


I had three bosses - and four opinions

now I'm having two bosses and three opinions



why don't they talk about what they do or what their commands would be.

there was no more than five minutes between my first boss giving my the directions for the day and the second asking what I was going to do that day...

'same thing as always Pinky... gonna conquer the World"

That Is Not the Way We Will Play

Just yesterday I was asked at work if the new responsibilities were given to me already. They were, the day before. there was a trace of peace - no bosses around. Today they struck again - new responsibilities...
Well it seems that finally I will have to get to work and stop just .. whatever it is I'm doing now there.
But I know I ain't gonna let them add me their work that easily.
I just don't know yet how. I'm sleepy now.
Luckily tomorrow's one of the best weekdays. (after 1600hrs).
And there's this integrating trip coming soon.
I don't know why, but I don't like it already.
They just talk about getting drunk - grown up kids left for themselves with no supervision on the schooltrip.
If I am to get drunk I'd rather do it with a group of Friends of whom I know they would not paint my face with markers and hang the photo in the internet.
Besides... I'm not the type that drinks just with anyone...
-_-

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This Should Not Work

A Monday like any other. The one that You hate from the very beginning. Right from the moment when at 4.30 a.m. - when You woke up, to find out that You haven't set the alarm clock for 6 a.m.
Next thing You did was (mostly because of being half asleep.. nay... three/fourths asleep) setting it for this doggone 6 a.m.
Of course at this stage You could forget about the Warmth and Pleasantness of the dream that You'd had just a while ago. It's all gone...
There's only one thought...
why six ... why six.... why Monday a.m.?

Then there's work. And the boss giving the new responsibilities while all the others in the company say : I can see You doing all that crap... right .. I can already see it... and then Yor see a lot of blinking around.

And the new thought appears...

Just let mi give You a bill...

Saturday, Night, Fever

the little differences. I've put two commas in between and I don't feel like dancing...



on the other hand those lights...


I'd better take some sleep.


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What Seems To Be the Problem Officer?

None of this stuff. I just realised how much I hate elevators. I work for a company with a very high position. And I need to get to this height every day. This one time there was also a security officer inside. And suddenly the light went off, the box stopped and the emergency button glowed.
The only thing I heard before that cage started to descend was strongly accented F-word.
Before I realised we were not falling but slowly going downwards with the help of the emergency programm the flashbacks of my life went as far as the primary school, age ten when I also...
got stuck in an elevator moving quite independently ...

independently from my wishes.

Story of my life ups and downs :)

But the moves happen to be nice.

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Something New... yet so Auld

I've just started my first weekend in the new place.
Honestly I must admit i could not wait for Friday since Monday. Now it is here... and it's raining.
That's how it goes. A weekend in the city.
I think I'll go to bed to dream me up some Island, sandy beach cool water and a fair, sun-tanning lass as a companion.


When I sleep... all my dreams come true


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Chaos in the Beginning

And Here I Am.. starting the way that a lot of people start..
the difference being I ain't going to end like them.
and the problem being ... having not an exact idea yet.

I'm ok with the way I am. and I know I need to change...
but I enjoy changing the world outside more.

so I will
and if I can't I will comment

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